So, the melatonin and kava kava mix didn't work last night for difficult child......... She went down, took a while after reading time, yet I was happy. Than at 1 a.m. it began she was wired beyond compare. Came in my room to wake me, which is what she does when she can't sleep. Asking me what can she do she can't sleep, she's not tired at all, etc. Needless to say it was a rough night. Trigger; High School Musical 3, believe it or not!! When I say High School Musical, well one of her two friends, and the Mom are going to join us tonight to go to the movies. So, difficult child was soo soo excited. I usually make it a point, I am learning not to make any type of plans infront of her, yet unfortunately other ppl do not understand how I have to run things, so the parent spoke openly infront of difficult child yesterday after school regarding it. Needless to say it flew her into some sort of state of mania again, which I haven't seen as of late with the herbal bedtime stuff. It was a shame to see that again, I have to be honest. I was beginning to feel as though I had some control over it at this point. She was also very nasty and rough this morning with me with her mouth. Would be mean and nasty to me than the next minute express her love to me. ********** Add in the fact that yesterday after theatre practice for the play she's in, upon leaving room with other kids the instructor came out and spoke to difficult child infront of the other kids. ugh bad bad, once again ppl don't get it. He told her how she needs to practice this weekend screaming her lines, how he cannot hear her at all, how the theatre that the show will be in is huge, etc. So, difficult child was incredibly disheartened, and embarrassed that he decided to speak with her infront of the other kids. I managed to difuse somewhat by simply stating that her and I would work on it over the weekend together and we would find her voice somehow. I knew this would happen, I took a shot at this program for her, I did. She has done well with the dancing part of it, yet that anxiety and her being so self conscious is what stops her from truly speaking up and out. Fact that she's in the class to begin with is huge to me. ********** So, at bedtime all the stuff came out. Her fears about the upcoming show in January, her fears about recess again, her excitement about the movie. I felt bad, I dropped her at school this a.m. (she goes in the front door refuses again to go in the regular side door) , and she began to walk down the hallway than stopped and walked back to me and said how she didn't feel well, etc. So, I did my ususal a.m. pep talk told her it's Friday and she'll have a great day, etc. So, i'm sure she'll be happy at pick up time she usually is. Also the movie tonight is exciting for her as well. Just sad to see that state again, the non sleep, the effects of the instructor on her. ok i'm done venting. thanks!