kattriss
Odds are forever in my favor...
So my husband is leaving for Greece on business, and I am jealous beyond belief. I hate feeling this way, but every time he leaves for business he is usually visiting a place on my bucket list that I will probably never get to see. Especially now that a good chunk of our income is going to therapy, medications, etc for our difficult child. And the thing that ticks me off the most is that he isn't even excited about going and "claims" that he isn't planning to do any sightseeing. Seriously? Last time he claimed he wouldn't do any sightseeing, I was treated to a FB photo of him standing in front of the Virgin Galactic spaceport (my inner nerd wanted to beat him senseless).
And forget the fact that I'm stuck at home, homeschooling two kids, taking care of the house and pets, cleaning up mess after mess, and trying to keep my difficult child in line while being screamed and cursed at. Forget the fact that I'm the one who will have to monitor her after tonight's medication increase and walk on eggshells hoping that she won't have a major mood swing as a result. Forget the fact that I've had to rearrange my schedule for this last minute trip or that my semester at work begins next week while he is still away. And forget the fact that I never get to go anywhere without the kids except places I DON'T want to go. (Note the sarcasm in previous paragraph)
And of course, we got into an argument about it tonight because he was "tired of me teasing/harping/complaining." Well of course I'm complaining! It's not like we don't have a daughter at home recently diagnosed with a mental illness or anything. Not like I'm not already exhausted and stressed. It's not like I should have to put my entire life on hold while he's away enjoying quiet evenings, 4-star hotels, and Mediterranean breezes.
His response? "Well you're going to a convention in NYC this spring." Yeah, I'm chaperoning eight 20-something's in a city I have never had any desire to visit and will have to watch them like hawks to make sure no one gets drunk or raped or worse. Yes, what a vacation. Yay. Can't wait.
His next response was that we go on vacations all the time. Yeah, to the same places I've been visiting since I was born...and I can't say that going home for Christmas is much of a vacation. I've never even left the eastern seaboard...sigh.
Am I being selfish or unreasonable in being jealous? Anyone else deal with this?
And forget the fact that I'm stuck at home, homeschooling two kids, taking care of the house and pets, cleaning up mess after mess, and trying to keep my difficult child in line while being screamed and cursed at. Forget the fact that I'm the one who will have to monitor her after tonight's medication increase and walk on eggshells hoping that she won't have a major mood swing as a result. Forget the fact that I've had to rearrange my schedule for this last minute trip or that my semester at work begins next week while he is still away. And forget the fact that I never get to go anywhere without the kids except places I DON'T want to go. (Note the sarcasm in previous paragraph)
And of course, we got into an argument about it tonight because he was "tired of me teasing/harping/complaining." Well of course I'm complaining! It's not like we don't have a daughter at home recently diagnosed with a mental illness or anything. Not like I'm not already exhausted and stressed. It's not like I should have to put my entire life on hold while he's away enjoying quiet evenings, 4-star hotels, and Mediterranean breezes.
His response? "Well you're going to a convention in NYC this spring." Yeah, I'm chaperoning eight 20-something's in a city I have never had any desire to visit and will have to watch them like hawks to make sure no one gets drunk or raped or worse. Yes, what a vacation. Yay. Can't wait.
His next response was that we go on vacations all the time. Yeah, to the same places I've been visiting since I was born...and I can't say that going home for Christmas is much of a vacation. I've never even left the eastern seaboard...sigh.
Am I being selfish or unreasonable in being jealous? Anyone else deal with this?