I don't know if any of you live with someone that has or is loosing their hearing, but if you do? You have my utmost sympathies. It is horrible. DF and I have a wonderful relationship. There are a lot of things in the last 12 years that have happened to us, which are bad. Physically for him. For me? It's more watching it all happen to him and having your hands tied. When we went for a hearing test about six months ago I was probably the happiest woman on the planet. My snarky comments, and exhales, and rolling my eyes and body language were to the point where I thought if I had to repeat ONE.MORE.WORD ;I would scream. DF would usually just stand there. Most days he is a very patient man, I know his loss of hearing frustrates him, and my actions did not help, but you would have to be here to understand the level of frustration before you'd judge me. When I loose my patience? I've surpassed almost everyone I know ten fold. Not that it justifies being immature, or acting out, but when you say the same thing three times, four times, five times and he still says "Wha?" It's frustrating. When we got into the hearing aid place? I was sure they would tell him he needed his ears cleaned, or he's just not paying attention to me, After the hearing test? They sat us in another room and the doctor said "Would you like to hear what it's like for him?" I was still a little cocky - and said "Sure." When he was done? I was fighting back tears. What a complete ass I have been. So then he gets fitted with hearing aids - and DF smiles and it's great and the doctor is whispering. It was wondeful. Then? The doctor starts discussing price and takes them out. I had to leave the room. I walked outside took a deep breath and cried anyway. Wouldn't have taken much to figure out I'd been crying despite going to the washroom and doing the coldwater paper towel thing. My nose lights up like rudolph. We left, I kept my face out the window - DF says - "Well that wasn't so bad honey I'm so sorry. - I mean I guess we can get flashcards or learn sign language." I mean AGAIN there he is apologizing for being poor, and saying he knows this is going to frustrate ME. I felt about () big. So since then? I've curbed myself and just repeat, repeat, repeat - until he hears me, and when he asks me to speak up - I don't SCREAm - I just yell louder. Well in the unemployment office -they posted a notice about a contest - and they sent it out statewide via email. The contest was for a hearing test and hearing aids. You were to write a letter about yourself or someone you know needing one. I wrote for a week, would tear the letter up - it sounded like I was begging - and I was. Oh how could I make anyone understand how frustrating this must be - FOR HIM. I mean for me? I can hear...I'm just a jerk for being so rude to someone who has a handicap - and here I am all over this board for years preaching to high heaven about people with handicapps and the people who are so rude to our kids. Wow - nice Star very nice. Nothing like being complacent in your OWN home. So after feeling like quite the small person? I sat down and I wrote what I felt in my heart. I wrote honestly about what he means to me, my son - and what a real jerk I was and how it upset me when I realized exactly what I'd become in spite of him being so loving and forgiving. Got a call a few minutes ago. They also apologized for taking so long to contact us - but the lady said they had so many letters this year more than ever before and it took so long to open them and read all of them. But they got a lovely letter -----mine. And they wanted to tell me I won for DF. I just cried. I didn't tell him - because if I didn't win I couldn't bear to see him think there was a chance again. I managed to get myself together - and just went to tell him.....He's never seen the letter I wrote. He didn't know I was THAT upset about the whole thing that day. He didn't know I've been beating myself up that much over being a jerk.....he said I have every right to be frustrated. he can't imagine how annoying it must be for me. But MAN WAS HE HAPPY when I told him HE WON. lol - I just pretended like -----here's this contest ------and here's my letter......(let him read) and then on the back of the letter ????? I wrote - YOUR APPOINTEMENT DATE. He looked and said - "Next tuesday? 10 oclock? I don't get it?" I said YES YOU DO GET IT -YOU WON! MY LETTER WON! hehe HOW COOL IS THAT~!