When I first joined this board about a month or so ago, it was Thanksgiving weekend. My daughter wasn't on any medications. My son was just on Intuniv. It was a few days before our first appointment. with-the psychiatrist. My daughter wasn't functioning in school or at home. Explosions and meltdowns over anything and everything. Especially against each other. My kids just fought and fought and fought. Neither of them was happy to see the other one happy. Neither one would agree to share or let the other pick a show. They're almost 10 and 8. It was a hideous day for me. Trying to mediate them all day long with-NO success. Finally, I lost it. I screamed and got angry and said things I shouldn't have said. Fast forward to today. My daughter is on Risperdal and recently added in Concerta. My son is on Intuniv and Concerta. Guess what? It's like Groundhog Day over here. It's been nothing but fights and meltdowns and screaming and crying all day. Trying to mediate them all day long with-NO success. Finally, I lost it. I screamed and got angry and said things I shouldn't have said. It's been like this the entire vacation. WHY am I giving my children these dreadful medications when they DON'T work?!!! I'm going to call the dr. tomorrow and ask about weaning them off it all. I mean, after some improvement for my daughter for what? a few weeks? and then to be back here? It's done nothing for me, so why subject them to these horrible drugs? Medications aren't working. Counsellors aren't working. Trying whatever every book out there suggests isn't working. Trying to explain to my children how badly their actions are hurting themselves, my husband and I and everyone else in their path isn't working. This is my horrid life. I'm watching all my friends enjoy watching their kids grow up and seeing what wonderful people they're turning into and I feel like I'm trapped with- 8 and 10 year old screaming toddlers. They've never matured past that stage. I feel terrible saying that I literally cannot wait for them to go back to school. I am so lost right now.