It's beem a while since I posted, I have not much to say or help, life has been very very hard and difficult all I do is cry most of the time. With my baby killed and now my oldest facing jail time.
We have court on the 30th and I'm pleading with you all to send some good thoughts, prayers, etc. my way that things come out as best as possible, if that really is possible. My son has many drug problems and made many mistakes but he is not a bad person, what he did was a bad thing and he needs consequences and help. I want him so badly to get help but it looks like it may jail instead. He is not doing well at all, he is grieving for his baby brother and with court he is a mess. He thinks he will die in prison, and he knows he won't be able to cry for his brother once this happens. He is a mess, I'm so afraid for him, I wish he went and got help that he really needed before this court date but he cannot seem to see past his substance abuse.
I need all the strenght and courage to get thru this and also be there for him and for my other son who has been such a trooper, God Bless his soul. I feel like I've neglected him all these months and I always tell him how sorry I am for not being there and he always tells me yes you are mom, I know that and it's ok. What an angel he is. I pray my baby is in heaven and is watching over us too, and be there for his brother like a guardian angel thru this terrible time.
Thank you Janet (Ant's mom) for being there for me in all this terrible mess I am in. I think you are a remarkable woman and I hope I can be as brave as you are.
Thank you all for being here for me, even though I haven't been around I know you guys will keep me in your prayers. You are all wonderful people and I'm blessed to be able to come here and ask for special prayers and know it will happen.
Bette
We have court on the 30th and I'm pleading with you all to send some good thoughts, prayers, etc. my way that things come out as best as possible, if that really is possible. My son has many drug problems and made many mistakes but he is not a bad person, what he did was a bad thing and he needs consequences and help. I want him so badly to get help but it looks like it may jail instead. He is not doing well at all, he is grieving for his baby brother and with court he is a mess. He thinks he will die in prison, and he knows he won't be able to cry for his brother once this happens. He is a mess, I'm so afraid for him, I wish he went and got help that he really needed before this court date but he cannot seem to see past his substance abuse.
I need all the strenght and courage to get thru this and also be there for him and for my other son who has been such a trooper, God Bless his soul. I feel like I've neglected him all these months and I always tell him how sorry I am for not being there and he always tells me yes you are mom, I know that and it's ok. What an angel he is. I pray my baby is in heaven and is watching over us too, and be there for his brother like a guardian angel thru this terrible time.
Thank you Janet (Ant's mom) for being there for me in all this terrible mess I am in. I think you are a remarkable woman and I hope I can be as brave as you are.
Thank you all for being here for me, even though I haven't been around I know you guys will keep me in your prayers. You are all wonderful people and I'm blessed to be able to come here and ask for special prayers and know it will happen.
Bette