Oh MY is right! Imagine my surprise when I log in this morning and see the title changed on my thread (my name) and I know I didn't do it! LOL I was like huh, what? Ok, I know I lost my marbles but I am not that bad off. Whoa!
Well NVTS, all I can say is I hear you loud and clear and can definitely sit tight with you on this one. I will keep you in thoughts. This is my story, not told often.
My very first pregnancy ended in a 36 week full term totally silent placenta abruption (meaning no signs, symptoms or bleeding). They made me go through the full on labor and delivery rather then c-section to take the baby. I was young then and I "think" they said it was best for me if they did this for a bunch of reasons, partly because it "helps the mom make it real" that they baby didn't survive. Ok, what ever. Everyone thought it cruel they could force this upon me (there is more horror to this story but I'll leave it at this alone).
So then I went through another pregnancy that ended in miscarraige, again silent. I had my first difficult child after 4 years. Needless to say family and myself had very high anxiety the whole time. She came naturally.
Then tempting the hand of fate a few more times (when some might have stopped) I miscarried again. It was usually about 16-22 weeks we found out about the loss but the baby actually had died before then. Don't ask me why they never picked it up before.
This brings me to difficult child #1 and #2 back to back after those loses (if you all have kept count now the total pregancy count is 10 -a set of twins were lost). I finally found a paranathologist who specialized in high risk pregnancies and she had a thought as to what the problem maybe and we put in place several things.
First I had to take injections of heparin daily (twice , if I recall as memory is not good, it was 20,000 units), take antibotics, baby aspirin, the first time round I had to also take some progesterone (all the losses were little boys), second time not.
With difficult child #1 the paranathologist wanted to stay on top of things so she ultrasounded me routinely starting at 14 weeks. EVERY single week I had an ultrasound done! (still have the pictures too) She wanted to make sure she didn't miss a thing should it happen. (this is my child who turned out to have orthopedic issues as well and we picked it up at 16 weeks!)
Thanks to her I now have 2 more children. I hadn't "really" planned on difficult child#3 (maybe board members recall that one). I am soooooooooo happy however that I do have
HIM though now. I would go through all of it all over again if I could (tubes tied now and actually am sad about it now that am divorced). I finally have a little boy after all these years and he is the light of my life. ALL my difficult child's truly are but he is "special" in his own way, for many ways actually. He was a product of board aunties too!
I shared all this with you so you can understand I DO understand concerns and I'm right there with you. In thoughts. Wishing you the best and hoping you cherish every moment this time around.
Tia