KFld
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As much as I hate to come back and tell everyone that my difficult child who was doing so well has relapsed because I am so upset and dissapointed, but I also feel like so many people here who I gave a glimmer of hope too will also be dissapointed and I feel guilty that I'm stealing that from you!!
I stopped in quite a few months back to let you all know that my son had weened himself off of everything and was totally clean and I was so estatic that he was doing so well. My bubble was burst not too long ago when he called to tell me he went back on suboxone, but I was o.k. because he admitted he relapsed and got himself help right away, but then last week he came to see me to tell me he has been useing again, hasn't been paying his rent or utilities and is supposed to be out of his apartment by tomorrow! I know the first step is admitting you have a problem and need help, and he has done that already, but I am at the stage of practicing my detachment and it's not easy to get back into it after quite a few years of him doing well. He hooked up with an outpatient program at the beginning of the week and I'm trying to sit back and let him do his thing and make his choices. I told him I'm here for him to support him emotionally when he's making the right choices and reminded him once again that I love him with my whole heart, but I will not him too death.
I'm not giving him any cash, I'm not offering him a place to live and I have been turning my cell phone off when I go to bed at night because it is the only way I can sleep, knowing he can't call me.
I am looking for something though and I'm sure someone here can find it and send it to me. Its the saying about detatchment and what we can and can't do for them. One of you must know what I'm talking about. I used to have it laminated and hanging on my refrigerator as a constant reminder whenever I felt like I was getting suck in. I would appreciate it if anyone can copy and paste that to me or post it somewhere.
Its been awhile, so I'm going to take sometime to read some other posts and see what is going on in everyone elses world, and I wish I could say I was happy to be back, but.........
I stopped in quite a few months back to let you all know that my son had weened himself off of everything and was totally clean and I was so estatic that he was doing so well. My bubble was burst not too long ago when he called to tell me he went back on suboxone, but I was o.k. because he admitted he relapsed and got himself help right away, but then last week he came to see me to tell me he has been useing again, hasn't been paying his rent or utilities and is supposed to be out of his apartment by tomorrow! I know the first step is admitting you have a problem and need help, and he has done that already, but I am at the stage of practicing my detachment and it's not easy to get back into it after quite a few years of him doing well. He hooked up with an outpatient program at the beginning of the week and I'm trying to sit back and let him do his thing and make his choices. I told him I'm here for him to support him emotionally when he's making the right choices and reminded him once again that I love him with my whole heart, but I will not him too death.
I'm not giving him any cash, I'm not offering him a place to live and I have been turning my cell phone off when I go to bed at night because it is the only way I can sleep, knowing he can't call me.
I am looking for something though and I'm sure someone here can find it and send it to me. Its the saying about detatchment and what we can and can't do for them. One of you must know what I'm talking about. I used to have it laminated and hanging on my refrigerator as a constant reminder whenever I felt like I was getting suck in. I would appreciate it if anyone can copy and paste that to me or post it somewhere.
Its been awhile, so I'm going to take sometime to read some other posts and see what is going on in everyone elses world, and I wish I could say I was happy to be back, but.........