I'm ready to give up with Head Start...they can just do what they like. It doesn't matter anymore. I got a phone call from John, who is the arsehole head of Head Start. He told me to stop harassing the families of the kids at head start. Now I doubt he can do anything because HE can't decide if I'm harassing them. I'm only seeing them once and everyone has been friendly. Many have asked me to come back or asked if I'd babysit their kids. Harassed??? Because they offered to let me in and I agreed and we spoke? But can John send a cop to my house for visiting these kids who used to be on my bus or do the families have to do it? He told me to stop doing it, but he didn't say what he'd do if I didn't. Well, I'm done visiting anyway. I've visited enough to know that they liked me. But, even if they did, I STILL LOST MY JOB BECAUSE P. LIED! And they must have thought so little of me, they believed her over me. I feel so depressed about the whole thing. There is no way to win this. I give up. I wonder if they WILL call the cops because I visited some of my kids, although I doubt if they can arrest me. Or send some legal papers, although I doubt if they have a case. But maybe they do and I'll end up in jail...lol. On top of this crapola, I had a meeting with my casworker today (disability worker) and she was reading what the neuropsychologist said about me...that I'm not neurotypical, that I have severe deficits in the function of the left side of my brain, and severe visual memory deficits. this isn't new. I've heard it before. But Blah. I really *am* disabled and I know how difficult children feel about being different. I hate it that I can't recognize anyone's face, can't find my way around the block, can't multitask AT ALL, can't even do a child's jigsaw puzzle.....(sigh). I hate that I can't even work at McD's because that's multitasking and I can't do it without making mistakes (yes, I tried). Anyhow, I hope I don't end up both disabled and in jail...lolol. Cripes, what a bad mood I'm in!!! Thanks for letting me vent. And PLEASE don't say, "I forget people's faces too..." that just makes it worse. It's not t he same thing. Plus I have no ability to visualize in my head or remember what I see at all. I can't even remember what my house looks like if I'm not staring at it. How long have I been this way? SINCE I WAS BORN!!!! Any thoughts on if this John jerk can get me nailed for harassment, even though nobody acted harassed? Is he just trying to scare me? He did...lol. Okay, love ya all.