V had a speech evaluation today, the therapist came to our house and we talked a bit before starting the evaluation itself. I ended up crying in front of him!! I just could not hold the tears back when I was describing the social issues: how V called a classmate a "friend" when in fact he was being bullied on a daily basis, how he was so happy at soccer to just be running with the group although he was not following the game at all and still had no clue he has to use his feet and not his hands, etc... I just ended wiping my tears and begged the therapist to not say "everything is fine, let's wait and see". The therapist discritely took his glasses off and wiped his eyes. Yep, I made him cry!!! Now, I'm not sure: should I cry or laugh about it?? The Speech Language Pathologist (SLP) did his evaluation and V qualifies for services on the expressive part: 14 percentile. Receptive was good: 40 percentile. I questioned on how the evaluation could show any social communication issues, he said that it could not show us that but V qualifies and now we can work on whatever we want. He also said that it will be a little tricky to get the social part since it is an agency that comes to the home. He'll see if he is allowed to go to V's school in order to get a better understanding of the social part. But I think he understands the issue and asked me if it was ok to get me really involved in the therapy sessions in order to add some social complexity. Of Course!! I feel like an emotional roller coaster... still trying to come to terms with V's issues. That comes after a terrible weekend, some of the worst tantrums ever, and tomorrow: surgery. Oh, and I met with behaviral therapist. I have mixed feelings about her. I don't think she grasps V's complexity. She has a simple view on things. I was describing one of the latest issue that led to a tantrum: - What do you want for breakfast: oatmeal or grits? - Eggs. - No, I don't feel like cooking. What do you want : oatmeal or grits? Those are your 2 choices. - Grits. -Ok. (take the grits out) - No, I want oatmeal. - Ok... (grits back in, oatmeal out) - No, no, I want grits. - Grrrr, ok! (oatmeal in, grits out) That is of course JUST the start, and therapist goes "Oh, my goodness!!" I look at her and explained that it was just the prelimenary part. Not the issue. The issue was when he ate 2 spoons of grits, I asked him to please finish his bowl otherwise he'll be hungry in 15 minutes and V threw a HUGE tantrum (screaming, crying, trying to vomit, stomping, yelling at me, etc...). I ended up sending him to his room and he eventually calmed down. And had no clue why he had to say sorry. Therapist thought that it was all a control issue. I had to explain that V has NO control over those behaviors. He was not being defiant: he cannot choose, ever. ANY choice is like a torture to him. But deciding for him is not acceptable either. I'm sorry if I wrote a book... I'm trying to help V but we seem to be running out of options, unless we end up getting an Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) diagnosis.