so i took today off, we get our birthday off at my company and i didn't take it that day yet took it today because i knew it was time to sit down and figure out what i was going to do with difficult child this summer and work. so, i've sat and tried to rearrange my schedule to fit in difficult child time, a full case load her doctor and therapist appointments and so far i'm in need of one more weekday lol. this isn't funny. sheesh i can't put her in camp, wanted to even though i can't really swing it financially we're still trying to get back from my medical leave financially and what that did to us. easy child also charged our cell bill up with "premium txt messaging, i guess horoscope stuff like that and they shut our service off i just couldnt' swing 500 cell bill again. Yet i figured what i could do is hire a college student, clean license someone who can engage her and also bring her to park etc. so i placed an ad today, than i am searching for some type of tennis lessons, something that will have her around peers and interacting to give her some socialization. she refuses to go to anything at all, when we speak of it. so, it should prove to be an interesting summer indeed. i'm on 3 1/2 week countdown till last day. lately it just feels like one thing after another. i feel like i'm in a volleyball game or something just trying to keep the ball in the air sort bs.