I need to talk to someone as my son is in the midst of an "anxiety" episode and I feel my heart pounding and trying to work my way through supporting him and not getting sucked in. It is so difficult. Writing will hopefully help distract me. He had an appointment with his therapist this am which was not his usual time. He goes to these appointments on his own as it usually goes better this way. Not the case today. He shows up for his appointment and overhears someone else check in with the front desk for the same dr, same time slot. He starts texting me that things are messed up. He refuses to go up and tell them that he is there and that we got a confirmation call the night before. He keeps texting me that the people there are gross, weird and entitled. I have no idea what is going on. I can't reach the front desk. Then he texts me that he is leaving, hates the therapist, never going back etc. I finally reach the therapist who was waiting on him and that the others there were just hoping to get an appointment by showing up. It all could have been avoided if he spoke up. She said it was a bad scene in the office as one of the patients who wanted in was having a tantrum and it was very anxiety provoking. She called my son directly on his cell phone (with my permission) and he wont answer her calls. He let me know that he goes there to deal with his anxiety not increase it. I could just scream. This feeling of powerless that washes over when everything gets derailed because of his crippling anxiety is just hell. I doubt he can be convinced to ever go back there. He can make so much progress and be cruising along when anxiety rears its ugly head. Therapist says we can use this as an opportunity to walk through what happened. I am trying to believe that. But she also was certain he would answer her call.