So, difficult child is fully aware of the move that is about to take place and how she will be without a home. Of course I am a horrible, horrible mother. So she is taking it out on me by doing the worse things you can do in my eyes and that is by taking pills (percocets I am guessing). The thing is, I don't even have the energy to get upset any longer. She took that power away from me a long time ago , however, it is upsetting me on the inside. I told difficult child that I moved to a place where I didn't want to move to so this way she could go to the high school she wanted to attend. It is not my fault that she blew it epically. If she would have graduated, then she would have been able to go to college and been able to live in a dorm. I have lived in the fifth circle of hell for the last five years and I am not going to do it anymore. I gave her so many chances but she keeps blowing them all. I am not saying I am without fault, I know that I am and our dysfunction has made her the way she is today, but what am I suppose to do? Am I never allowed to recover, or do my own thing? Live a little for me? If I don't, then we both will truly have nothing. I just want this to be over with. It's too long to live this way. She keeps destroying herself. I just personally don't care anymore if she does. Maybe that is natures way of letting me cut the cord finally. I am also done with being blamed for everything. "because of you I am not going to school and I am not getting a job. I am going to become what you want me to be, a ********* drug addict". Is anyone else done with this load of horse sh*t?