difficult child came here today. I ignored doorbell. Went to neighbors and used her phone. I pretended I was at WalMart. He didn't buy it cause he came right back here and began ringing bell over and over. Talked to him out of a second story window. He was crazed. Said they were after him and would kill him. Jumped and ran every time a car passed (he didn't do that with my neighbor). Said where he was staying was a child porno ring. He had the key to the safe but couldn't find it to see if the tapes were in it. Cops need his help. Bad guys are going to get him. Begs me to let him go back to rehab. On HIS terms. Nope, you must go here (a local faith based ministry which will take him now) and in two months, when insurance will pay, I will take you to one of the best places in the country. No.....he wants to go to X, the place we tried for IOP but as an inpatient. Not doing that. He jumps the fence and starts banging on the back door. I had refused to let him in the front. I had an Al-anon sponsor listening to most of this on the speakerphone. He says - call cops. I do. difficult child doesn't know I did so and is back in front yard when they come. I say "No one is trying to murder you" etc. as they are walking up so I can prove to them what he has been saying. They cuff him and search him. One comes inside with me. We discuss options. Trespass. Let him go. Make appointment with county mental health officer for consult. I ask them if they will accompany difficult child to where his stuff is - he claims his life is in danger. No they cannot go on the property. Ok, you can park on the curb. No...**and this is the kicker**....I cannot interfere with a pending investigation. I ask him if I am supposed to read between the lines. He says nothing. So....I think some of what difficult child is saying is true. Cop and I go outside. difficult child is handcuffed in my front yard with six cops. We talk to him. He refuses to allow me to take him to treatment. Cops tell him not to return. I tell him when he is ready to call me or get me a message. difficult child is released and leaves. Cops don't say much but admit that house where he has been is an issue. Go inside. Talk to two key Al-anon friends. I get on FB. create new account, and message difficult child. Sure enough he answers. We talk. I found out he can go to Salvation Army shelter tonight and then maybe get into their rehab in the morning. Different that the first program I suggested so I try that. Here are some of his comments back to me as we discuss it: --------------------------------------------------- No I dont believe in what ythey believe in. I will diee before I go somewhere that forces religion on me. I swear to God if you leave me out here I won't live until OCT. They came for us last night and Saturday night. has kid filming rooms in the house i dont want to be here i dont want to drink and were running out of time. Salvation army is gonna be either faith based or all old people I'll go to the salvation army if they let me use my phone, internet, smoke, and they feed me. We have to let everyone know I moved somewhere far out of the area. I need a shower and more cigarettes I know your trying to play me Ok will I have a room at the salvation army Here are the last five lines difficult child....How do I know I can trust you? Me...you gotta better option? difficult child...Actually I know that I can't you tought me that Me...then forget it...cya difficult child...I'm going to die He then blocked me. I looked at his FB. He messages his sponsor and another in recovery syaing he wated to go to rehab and I won't take him where he wanted to go. They weren't online. He contacted someone he met at the sober house who is his age and back here living with his parents. Told the guy that he relapsed, is broke and needs help. The guy came up here and got him. I'm grateful for that because I will sleep better tonight. Have spoken with the county mental health officer. He says I can start committment papers due to the bipolar diagnosis. BUT...laws are such that if difficult child is high and crazy...he can do nothing....only if he is high. I'm going to talk to them more tomorrow. I don't know what to think. difficult child lies but I know the police know something about that house so there is some validity. difficult child is on more than beer - he says THC but he told someone else a different story earlier. My gut tell me it is part substance, part crazy people around him and a huge part of stubborn "I want it MY way NOW." I'm thankful he chose someone in recovery to call. Grateful he went to that guy's parents home. I'm tired. Haven't eaten all day. Need to cry. Thanks for reading this far.