It has been a long time since I posted, so much has been going on that I just dont have the time to put into posting, but I will try now to start again. Both kids have started school. easy child is a Junior, and so far is doing well. She has come far from last year when she was falling apart at the beginning of the year, cutting and suicidal. difficult child? He is a difficult child. He is a freshman, it just does not seem possible. He is going to a Special Education high school. It is the behavior/emotional problem school. It actually is a good thing for him, their behavior philosophy is based on Ross Greenes CPS model. They do lots of out door learning, group therapy, yoga, it is really a great program for him and I am so glad he was able to get in. He really enjoys his school, and the teachers enjoy him and his zest for life. I am glad, and hope that he finds his area to shine. Both kids have bus services this year, so they are both riding the bus! Gives me some time to take care of me. Of course, difficult child is cycling. He is pretty manic. He saw his therapist Wednesday (she had been on vacation for 3 weeks) and she called me to comment on it. He is making up crazy lies about what drugs he has done (he has been tested, and never tested for anything) and lots of other stuff. He has been borderline sexually inappropriate, very driven, perseverates, non stop chatter, it has been rough. His tics are back. The throat clearing tic that he had from the seroquel at the Residential Treatment Center (RTC)? It is back, so I am thinking that now it is from the invega. He sees psychiatrist on Thursday, and I know she is going to want to increase the invega. I am not sure how I feel about that. On one hand, it may help and it could be that his brain is just going to fast and that is worsening the tics and stutter I have seen that before. Or if it is caused from the invega, then if we increase it it will get worse quick. I am almost thinking that if she wants to increase the invega, I will allow it but if the tics/stutter get worse? We need a back up plan because I cannot allow that to continue. I am thinking that what I really want is to add depakote. He tried that years ago, and it was bad but it was so long ago, and the aderall he is on now? He did not tolerate that years ago but he does now. I know many here have dealt with difficult medication issues, and I hope some here can help somehow.