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Mom? What's a difficult child?
JoG's post got me thinking about our upcoming trip to Mexico.
I know how everyone says they wish they could go on vacation.
The thing is, traveling is so hard for me. I know boo-hoo. But those of us with a Mood-Disorder, do not travel well.
It messes up my schedule, my sleep my whole being. It makes me anxious, triggers me something fierce. I have had panic attacks in the past when traveling and bad insomnia.
So I have to have anti-anxieties on hand.
Then there are my kids. Almost every time we travel either N or K has an issues. N has had a few times when she does not sleep.
K has had many times when she becomes manic.
In the past when we travel with the in-laws they have messed things so bad, having itineraries... having to do this or that. K just can not handle it.
So the thought of travel for people with Mood-Disorders is so intense. I am trying to make this time calm, I am setting things up before hand.
We have traveled a lot. We know all of the tricks.
But things can go wrong, no matter how much you prepare.
K is not doing well on top of of all of this.
The only reason we are going is because of my Dad, his illness, his moving from this home...
Because we will not have to leave the house at all. We will be on the water in a big house no expectations. FOR ONCE!
So if any vacation could go right I think this could finally be it. My Dad is really trying to make it go right also.
The only thing that might go wrong is that thing called my Alcoholic Brother showing up halfway though.
But I'm even ready to deal with this.
We are pretty much stuck at my Dad's house, he lives no where near any thing.
But the place is big, ocean, pool, space.
I am truly grateful to get away. But I was just laughing at every one saying they would love to get away.
Because I am sitting here cringing. Worried about my kids, myself. Luckily the time change is only and hour.
I would gladly take any of you, I would love the support and a friend!
We leave this Saturday. YIKES
Actually for me going somewhere by myself is a bit easier. Still hard but less worry.
I know how everyone says they wish they could go on vacation.
The thing is, traveling is so hard for me. I know boo-hoo. But those of us with a Mood-Disorder, do not travel well.
It messes up my schedule, my sleep my whole being. It makes me anxious, triggers me something fierce. I have had panic attacks in the past when traveling and bad insomnia.
So I have to have anti-anxieties on hand.
Then there are my kids. Almost every time we travel either N or K has an issues. N has had a few times when she does not sleep.
K has had many times when she becomes manic.
In the past when we travel with the in-laws they have messed things so bad, having itineraries... having to do this or that. K just can not handle it.
So the thought of travel for people with Mood-Disorders is so intense. I am trying to make this time calm, I am setting things up before hand.
We have traveled a lot. We know all of the tricks.
But things can go wrong, no matter how much you prepare.
K is not doing well on top of of all of this.
The only reason we are going is because of my Dad, his illness, his moving from this home...
Because we will not have to leave the house at all. We will be on the water in a big house no expectations. FOR ONCE!
So if any vacation could go right I think this could finally be it. My Dad is really trying to make it go right also.
The only thing that might go wrong is that thing called my Alcoholic Brother showing up halfway though.
But I'm even ready to deal with this.
We are pretty much stuck at my Dad's house, he lives no where near any thing.
But the place is big, ocean, pool, space.
I am truly grateful to get away. But I was just laughing at every one saying they would love to get away.
Because I am sitting here cringing. Worried about my kids, myself. Luckily the time change is only and hour.
I would gladly take any of you, I would love the support and a friend!
We leave this Saturday. YIKES
Actually for me going somewhere by myself is a bit easier. Still hard but less worry.
