recovering doormat
Lapsed CDer
how do you keep going?
I always thought I was a fairly resilient person, but now, after seven years of intense family, couple and mental health issues, and with only one child out of three that I am "responsible" for parenting, I just don't feel like doing it anymore. My oldest just called to ask if she could sleep over and of course, I told her she is welcome, but I really don't feel up to dealing with her whining and depression right now.
I do have a therapist, I just started seeing her once a week instead of biweekly, and I'm on medications. Maybe the Rx just isn't cutting it, she told me to go up on the Lexapro since I started experiencing SSRI "poopout." But that just seems to make me a tad more jittery, but not feeling more confident. It's like, I've spent so much time dealing with one crisis after another, one misbehaving person after another, and still dealing with a vindictive ex who is vested in making me look incompetent, that I wonder what competency I do have as a parent.
Anyone else go through this? A crisis of faith in yourself and hope for the future. How did you weather it?
I always thought I was a fairly resilient person, but now, after seven years of intense family, couple and mental health issues, and with only one child out of three that I am "responsible" for parenting, I just don't feel like doing it anymore. My oldest just called to ask if she could sleep over and of course, I told her she is welcome, but I really don't feel up to dealing with her whining and depression right now.
I do have a therapist, I just started seeing her once a week instead of biweekly, and I'm on medications. Maybe the Rx just isn't cutting it, she told me to go up on the Lexapro since I started experiencing SSRI "poopout." But that just seems to make me a tad more jittery, but not feeling more confident. It's like, I've spent so much time dealing with one crisis after another, one misbehaving person after another, and still dealing with a vindictive ex who is vested in making me look incompetent, that I wonder what competency I do have as a parent.
Anyone else go through this? A crisis of faith in yourself and hope for the future. How did you weather it?