Thank you, all. I really appreciate your responses. Most of all, it makes me feel less alone. And less like a screw-up. You’re all so strong that it gives me hope. Even though it’s a daily struggle, I can do it.
I do think I’ve conflated co-dependence and the precursor to detachment. The detachment article was very “me,” and so I had assumed that meant I was co-dependent. Nomenclature aside, I was very enmeshed with my son’s life, and that wasn’t healthy.
I don’t know if I’ll ever see or hear from him again. But that’s okay. I wish him the best, and I’m still able to live a happy and productive life despite the uncertainty. My “weakness” in that I worry about him just makes me...a decent human.
It’s good to know that I’m not alone.
