Karisma, while my heart breaks for everyone's child, yours is probably the hardest for me to read about because he has serious mental illness. He didn't cause it. You didn't cause it.
I believe that, unlike most of our kids, your son may be unable to get help or could be afraid/paranoid of medication. I have spent almost all of my life advocating for the mentally ill and the fact that we can.not help our psychotic, severely mentally sick family members makes me ill. It is not the same as trying to help somebody who is depressed but can tell reality from fantasy. It is not the same as addiction. It is not failure to thrive.
It is a category all its own
Psychosis.
Our country treats it as if the afflicted people can actually make rational, good decisions for themselves if they would just do it. They need to look "psychosis" up in the dictionary.
I wish I could say something more than what you already know...you have done all you can and he surely knows you love him.
I'm so sorry.