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<blockquote data-quote="DarkwingPsyduck" data-source="post: 686106" data-attributes="member: 20267"><p>Wow... You're probably capable of understanding me better than just about everybody. Living such a similarly cluster<img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/2012/censored2.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":censored2:" title="censored2 :censored2:" data-shortname=":censored2:" />ed life. It's rough. The biggest regrets I have are about my sister. I have 4 other older brothers and sisters, but we rarely ever occupied the same state at the same time. But I was always kept with my twin. She's an incredible person. She is barely literate, but so creative. The opposite of me. I couldn't draw, sing, dance, or anything. The last words I ever said to my mother was mean. I was resentful. I felt like she was judging me for having left. A lot of that was probably my own guilt and regret for having done it. As bad as she was when I was still with her, she always at least tried to keep it away from us. I wasn't stepping on used needles, or anything like that. I was clever enough to know that something was obviously very wrong, and that mom was very unhealthy. Just didn't know what it was. Seems like she gave up trying to hide it after that. Doing drugs with my sister... I left one dysfunctional life for another. My father is very intelligent. Speaks 4 languages fluently, has traveled the world in military service. Funny man, too. But a drunk. And a violent one. I think people don't really see the effects of lives that dysfunctional. It's something they see on the news, and something they are grateful to not experience, but very few really KNOW. But, everybody has their problems. If there is one single thing I have learned is that there is ALWAYS somebody who had/has it even worse than you. It's important to see that. It stopped me from blaming everything on everybody else. I personally know guys who had it worse, and are MUCH better off than I am right now. As easy as it would be to blame my parents, the child protective services, it doesn't get me anywhere. It's done. It is set in stone, and will not change. The pity party isn't in the least bit helpful, and it tends to annoy others. And offends ones who had it even worse. My sister is still doing it. Though, to be fair, I'd be amazed if she didn't. The fact is, I had no illusions about what I was doing. It's not like I thought being a drug addict and a thief was acceptable. I knew it wasn't. Yet, I made the decisions to keep doing it, and keep ratcheting it up. There may be some deep psychological and environmental issues that may help explain WHY I was doing it, but that isn't an excuse. It's barely an explanation.</p><p></p><p>Thank you for sharing. I know there are people who had it worse than me, but I don't get the chance to be understood so well very often. I wish you the best of luck.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DarkwingPsyduck, post: 686106, member: 20267"] Wow... You're probably capable of understanding me better than just about everybody. Living such a similarly cluster:censored2:ed life. It's rough. The biggest regrets I have are about my sister. I have 4 other older brothers and sisters, but we rarely ever occupied the same state at the same time. But I was always kept with my twin. She's an incredible person. She is barely literate, but so creative. The opposite of me. I couldn't draw, sing, dance, or anything. The last words I ever said to my mother was mean. I was resentful. I felt like she was judging me for having left. A lot of that was probably my own guilt and regret for having done it. As bad as she was when I was still with her, she always at least tried to keep it away from us. I wasn't stepping on used needles, or anything like that. I was clever enough to know that something was obviously very wrong, and that mom was very unhealthy. Just didn't know what it was. Seems like she gave up trying to hide it after that. Doing drugs with my sister... I left one dysfunctional life for another. My father is very intelligent. Speaks 4 languages fluently, has traveled the world in military service. Funny man, too. But a drunk. And a violent one. I think people don't really see the effects of lives that dysfunctional. It's something they see on the news, and something they are grateful to not experience, but very few really KNOW. But, everybody has their problems. If there is one single thing I have learned is that there is ALWAYS somebody who had/has it even worse than you. It's important to see that. It stopped me from blaming everything on everybody else. I personally know guys who had it worse, and are MUCH better off than I am right now. As easy as it would be to blame my parents, the child protective services, it doesn't get me anywhere. It's done. It is set in stone, and will not change. The pity party isn't in the least bit helpful, and it tends to annoy others. And offends ones who had it even worse. My sister is still doing it. Though, to be fair, I'd be amazed if she didn't. The fact is, I had no illusions about what I was doing. It's not like I thought being a drug addict and a thief was acceptable. I knew it wasn't. Yet, I made the decisions to keep doing it, and keep ratcheting it up. There may be some deep psychological and environmental issues that may help explain WHY I was doing it, but that isn't an excuse. It's barely an explanation. Thank you for sharing. I know there are people who had it worse than me, but I don't get the chance to be understood so well very often. I wish you the best of luck. [/QUOTE]
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