My daughter and I are still not talking.
I waited a few weeks and then sent her a message. 'I hope you're doing well. No matter what, I love you' no response.
I sent another one yesterday 'can we talk today? Lunch?' Again no response.
I know I need to stop trying because I only hurt myself more.
My dad said to stop giving her the control. I find this interesting. This whole thing is like a bad game. I am still learning how to play.
I know I only have control over me and my emotions and I am trying. I'm tired of being sad and constantly have her on my mind.
I say I'm going to move on and focus on my life, but dang it, it's not that easy.
Who is this girl that I used to be so close to? How can family mean nothing to her?
I know about being codependent. I have talked about this with my therapist. I am reading the book too.
I get some of it. I know I am putting way to much of my life into wanting her to be a part of it. But she IS my daughter, not just another person. I know I can't make her do anything and I don't want that. I want her to want a relationship.
I know what to need to do. But my heart does not want to follow my head.
