No, you are not being "difficult". It is almost like this doctor is blaming you because she does not know how to help you.
How awful that this is happening to you.
Chronic pain is a mystifying, horrifying spiral. You are not alone in what is happening to you. There will come a time when the medical profession will understand how to help...but for today, the professional response seems to be "blame the sufferer". This TED talk may help you understand what has happened, and how it happened. This is not in your head.
[MEDIA=ted]talks/elliot_krane_the_mystery_of_chronic_pain[/MEDIA]
If you find this TED of some value, here are others on chronic pain.
https://www.ted.com/topics/pain
I am so sorry this is happening to you.
This is happening also to my daughter.
Cedar
