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Daisy...here is that poem on borderline for you
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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 439761" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>I didnt write it, I found it on the web but it just resounded so strongly in me that it was like it was written from my very soul. </p><p></p><p>I have always told Tony that he needed to just grab me and restrain me in a bear hug type thing like they tell us to restrain our kids, when I was in one of my really bad rages but he never would. He was convinced I would get worse or hate him. Just the opposite but he never believes me. </p><p></p><p>What happened for me to actually get somewhat healthy from feeling like that was medication and lots of therapy. It took probably almost 3 years of weekly or twice weekly therapy along with good medications for me to actually stop wanting to either harm myself or others. I tended to take it out on me or my walls. My house looks like hell with all the holes in the walls. By the end of that 3 years, my therapist stopped sneaking looks at my arms and looking alarmed if I even had a scratch. The first year I got questioned intensely. Even a dog scratch I had to explain fully. I have self harmed since I left the hospital. I have hit a wall or two but not many. </p><p></p><p>mainly i think that came about because I learned to get in touch with the different actual emotions instead of just feeling anger all the time. anger is a cop out. anger is easy. i learned to feel scared or lonely or sad or ticked off or grief or irritable or sick or needy etc without having to be in a rage. I can actually say the words out loud now someone better take the time to hear me or there will be hell to pay...lol. That is when there is a problem. if I go to all the trouble of using my tools and then I get ignored, I get angry and I get angry loudly. Tony pretty much jumps to attention then and figures out he has messed up on the therapy train then...lol.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 439761, member: 1514"] I didnt write it, I found it on the web but it just resounded so strongly in me that it was like it was written from my very soul. I have always told Tony that he needed to just grab me and restrain me in a bear hug type thing like they tell us to restrain our kids, when I was in one of my really bad rages but he never would. He was convinced I would get worse or hate him. Just the opposite but he never believes me. What happened for me to actually get somewhat healthy from feeling like that was medication and lots of therapy. It took probably almost 3 years of weekly or twice weekly therapy along with good medications for me to actually stop wanting to either harm myself or others. I tended to take it out on me or my walls. My house looks like hell with all the holes in the walls. By the end of that 3 years, my therapist stopped sneaking looks at my arms and looking alarmed if I even had a scratch. The first year I got questioned intensely. Even a dog scratch I had to explain fully. I have self harmed since I left the hospital. I have hit a wall or two but not many. mainly i think that came about because I learned to get in touch with the different actual emotions instead of just feeling anger all the time. anger is a cop out. anger is easy. i learned to feel scared or lonely or sad or ticked off or grief or irritable or sick or needy etc without having to be in a rage. I can actually say the words out loud now someone better take the time to hear me or there will be hell to pay...lol. That is when there is a problem. if I go to all the trouble of using my tools and then I get ignored, I get angry and I get angry loudly. Tony pretty much jumps to attention then and figures out he has messed up on the therapy train then...lol. [/QUOTE]
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