I know all too well that feeling of being worn down and tired of it all.
I remember my son screaming at me how he couldn't wait until he didn't have to live with us anymore, how much better his life was going to be when he didn't have to follow our stupid rules. I'll be honest, I couldn't wait for that day either. I was so tired of the constant fighting, of him running away then breaking into the house while we were at work and coming home to find my house ransacked, the phone calls from school that once again he was not there, the trips to court, the trips to jail and on and on.
KSM, this too shall pass. You will get through this. I know that it may feel like it will never end and you will never have peace but it will.
It's just such a hard journey but you are not alone. I so wish I had found this site many years ago as I'm sure I would have detached sooner and not done as much as I did to try to get my son to change, to live a responsible life. I do not regret anything I did to try and help him or the money that was spent but I do know that I continued trying to save him for to long.
The day will come when your daughter will no longer live with you and you will experience some peace. That peace can be short lived however because as with most of our DCs there will be phone calls from them begging for help, they will be in crisis mode and they will suddenly want mommy and daddy to make everything ok for them.
Have you given thought to down the road as to how you will respond if and when she calls in crisis mode? Only you can decide how much of that you will put up with and how much help if any you will offer.
Let us know how thing are progressing.
((HUGS)) to you....................
