This was my first holiday without my gfgd. She had come home at christmas time but it was a complete disaster. Everyone walked on eggshells, tried not to say anything that upset her and ignored her manic talk about how she was exploring cutting and her new boyfriend.
At first it was very difficult for me. Until I realized I had just yelled at my easy child#3, who is only 2 by the way, for the third time for absolutely no reason except he wsa being a normal two yr old and running around. I made a conscious effort the rest of the day to hold my tongue and tried to keep a smile on my face.
It was just us, no inlaws from either side as we are in the doghouse with them as usual. But my lovely neighbours from next door popped over with a goodie bag for all of us, even the adults which was very nice.
Not saying I didn't cry....but that was into the bubbles while I did up the dishes in the evening...pretty sure the only person who saw me crying was my neighbour walking by...
The girls said is was nice, no yelling or fighting for a change...never really knew until yesterday how our holidays had fallen apart....sigh
Carolanne
