JCW -- I can relate soooo relate. We've had to do similar. The injury story would be particularly difficult, indeed. Haven't had to do that one yet (knock wood). But I have had to boot him out of my car when he was raging, threatening and homeless.....and it was snowing outside. That one was tough! And I felt all the same feelings you expressed.
But I have to agree with what many have expressed here.....it will, most likely, sadly, continue. At age 33 there's a pretty clear pattern here. If he were THAT bad, someone else would most likely call paramedics for him (even without his permission).
Let me just validate you literally here.... Not only your feelings, but your actions. You have repeatedly shown up, helped, strategized, fed, clothed, prayed for, cared for, etc. And it sounds like you've done it very well! From what I read, you've done a fantastic job of doing what you can.
Sometimes the sad truth is that not much can be done --- especially if they don't want to change. So hard on mothers' hearts! But reality is reality.
Our difficult child just will NOT give up what he perceives as his freedom. Sadly, he perpetuates his own "life prison" as it limits his life severely -- both in quality and quantity. I don't know your difficult child, so don't wish to speak out of turn. But his story just sounds entirely too familiar.
Lastly, it's monumentally sad that our difficult child's either don't have sanity (whatever the reasons -- medically or voluntarily). But we can choose to preserve what we have of our sanity. And though it will always hurt, I believe much healing can still be found.
We support you!
