Hi Copa. I have followed along as you have "sorted out". I too feel this is a place to talk to ME. I often appreciate feedback but primarily reap benefit from putting my feelings down "on paper".
Ah the ladder, how many times have I carried that? Our boy/men have needs other than their substance issues and I now know my line is a "roof overhead". I simply cannot bear the homeless pain when I know his abilities are not that of the average person...so we contribute toward rent as long as he makes appointments and continues to try. I found my line of peace, it's there. Is it conditional? Yes. But it's not love, it's assistance. Life is full of conditions, it's ok that he understands this. I continue each day to try to find my peace above his circumstances. Thank you for your musings-they strengthen me, just knowing you are still in this also. Prayers.
