Wow. Thank you, ladies. 
That's a lot to soak in. I'll have to read and re-read and digest this. It seems like it should be so easy, but it's not.
Weak and pathetic because I can't just 'buck up'. Weakness - real or perceived - is something I have real issues with. Like should be addressed in therapy type issues. Which, I have addressed it in therapy, actually. Just not enough, I guess. Weakness to me equals vulnerable. I don't do vulnerable. Period. I guess to me weak and pathetic are pretty much synonymous.
Inadequate because I can't do everything I think I should be doing. I feel like I'm failing everyone, letting everyone down. I have standards for myself. I'm not reaching them. Or even coming close.
I appreciate the time and thought you ladies put into responding to me...supporting me.
I think this is going to be a long, long process.
