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<blockquote data-quote="daralex" data-source="post: 121903" data-attributes="member: 4467"><p>i now it probably makes me the bad guy - but in all truth I have no desire to quit - it's the one thing I hang on to to de-stress (Yes, I know how much of a cop out that is!!) It makes me feel guilty to no end. I guess I thought she would "experiment" with things but never thought any of it would stick. I guess mostly I'm venting and disappointed in myself and difficult child all at the same time. Life wasn't supposed to be this way and I guess I am still mourning the loss of that child I thought she would be instead of what has become. I know all of this makes us stronger, but somewhere in the back of my head I can't help feeling sorry for all of us - this isn't what any of us bargained for and it is really just in the last year or so that things have gotten to extremes. I never saw myself in this position and though I trudge through each day doing my best and my all, it sometimes feels as though it's all for nothing. Is there ever a light at the end of the tunnel? Do they ever "hear" us? I just want her life to be good and not to go down the same path I did at her age (I experimented a lot as a child with anything and everything and no one in my family smokes or drank) but they are all certifiable!!!! Sorry to be such a downer - this is just a hrd realization for me to come to that she's not 5 with wide eyes and pig-tails anymore. I guess I am still mourning that loss. Thanks for listening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</p><p>-dara</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="daralex, post: 121903, member: 4467"] i now it probably makes me the bad guy - but in all truth I have no desire to quit - it's the one thing I hang on to to de-stress (Yes, I know how much of a cop out that is!!) It makes me feel guilty to no end. I guess I thought she would "experiment" with things but never thought any of it would stick. I guess mostly I'm venting and disappointed in myself and difficult child all at the same time. Life wasn't supposed to be this way and I guess I am still mourning the loss of that child I thought she would be instead of what has become. I know all of this makes us stronger, but somewhere in the back of my head I can't help feeling sorry for all of us - this isn't what any of us bargained for and it is really just in the last year or so that things have gotten to extremes. I never saw myself in this position and though I trudge through each day doing my best and my all, it sometimes feels as though it's all for nothing. Is there ever a light at the end of the tunnel? Do they ever "hear" us? I just want her life to be good and not to go down the same path I did at her age (I experimented a lot as a child with anything and everything and no one in my family smokes or drank) but they are all certifiable!!!! Sorry to be such a downer - this is just a hrd realization for me to come to that she's not 5 with wide eyes and pig-tails anymore. I guess I am still mourning that loss. Thanks for listening!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -dara [/QUOTE]
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