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Has anyone read, Madness: a Bipolar Life?
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<blockquote data-quote="lovemysons" data-source="post: 447573" data-attributes="member: 3305"><p>Hi Christy, </p><p>I haven't read a book about Bipolar Disorder in many years...but I myself have the diagnosis. </p><p></p><p>I don't think that having Bipolar Disorder is ALL a negative. </p><p>Now, I have suffered with depression, a temporary eating disorder (along the lines of anorexia), alcoholism, anxiety, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) behavior. </p><p></p><p>The flip side is...that as a teen I was VERY creative. Was involved in both fine arts as well as commercial art and quite talented. Even had one of my pieces entered in State Competition and got recognition for it. I also LOVED writing poetry. </p><p></p><p>As an adult...the anxiety and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) (manic behavior) manifested itself through having an immaculate house. You would never find clutter or ANYTHING left undone, even with 3 children and all of their friends over. I was able to sell two homes within 2 weeks of putting on the market because quite honestly the "perfectionist" in me had the homes in Selling Condition at all times that we lived in them. The yard was beautiful...with flowers spilling out of a barrell in the front, the pool sparkling, the grass greener than anyone on the block (I used organic soil enrichers and earth worm and castings and even, lol, released preying manis') The house was constantly vacuumed and toilets always cleaned, always dusted and windexed, etc. I was a VERY busy mom with ALOT of demands I placed on myself. </p><p></p><p>Along with having an immaculate house I also kept our finances (at that time) perfected and we once qualified for a Half Million Dollar Home when we were looking for home in the Mountains of Colorado (where we did end up moving for one year). Which by the way had been a teenage dream for husband and I...to live in the mountains in Co, and we made it COME TRUE. </p><p></p><p>In addition, the "creative side" (as an adult) came out with letters to editior citing examples of morals that were being taught and learned by my children in everyday situations. I was often "in the paper". I also was VERY involved in politics and called in on radion talk shows with my "highly opinionated self". lol </p><p></p><p>Now...</p><p>4 1/2 yrs ago I did finally lose it completely. I had a psychotic breakdown and all that goes along with that. I was hallucinating visually, auditorially even smelling a "burning smell". My breakdown was all religiously based and quite scary as I "thought" the Devil and G-d were competing for my soul. </p><p>I was hospitalized just in time as I could very well have hurt myself or someone else...since my mother as well as my husbands faces turned into the Devil (in my mind). </p><p>I also was confronted by police after husband was trying to take me to the hospital himself and the police were called. I had jumped out of our truck because husband had a shovel sticking out of the back of it and in my mind he was taking me to the edge of town to "bury" me. When the police caught me I tried to grab the gun from one of the officers in order to shoot myself as I thought they all wanted me dead anyway. </p><p></p><p>After my hospitilization I was on various mood stabilizing drugs that were not working...finally placed Abilify. </p><p>Abilify has been life altering for me. No more deep depression...even in the middle of depressing events (like my young difficult child being in jail right now, etc). No more intense anxiety or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) type behavior either (mania). Now I do miss some of the creativity and have a "beautiful home" at all times, finances in order at all times etc. But I honestly feel that I am in a much better place today on the right medication as I function on a normal emotional level now. </p><p></p><p>It is an interesting a complex life in my opinion but it does not have to be completely negative...creativity, passions, talents, perfectionism, and profound thought processes are a few BiPolar (BP) "traits" in my opinion. </p><p></p><p>LMS</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="lovemysons, post: 447573, member: 3305"] Hi Christy, I haven't read a book about Bipolar Disorder in many years...but I myself have the diagnosis. I don't think that having Bipolar Disorder is ALL a negative. Now, I have suffered with depression, a temporary eating disorder (along the lines of anorexia), alcoholism, anxiety, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) behavior. The flip side is...that as a teen I was VERY creative. Was involved in both fine arts as well as commercial art and quite talented. Even had one of my pieces entered in State Competition and got recognition for it. I also LOVED writing poetry. As an adult...the anxiety and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) (manic behavior) manifested itself through having an immaculate house. You would never find clutter or ANYTHING left undone, even with 3 children and all of their friends over. I was able to sell two homes within 2 weeks of putting on the market because quite honestly the "perfectionist" in me had the homes in Selling Condition at all times that we lived in them. The yard was beautiful...with flowers spilling out of a barrell in the front, the pool sparkling, the grass greener than anyone on the block (I used organic soil enrichers and earth worm and castings and even, lol, released preying manis') The house was constantly vacuumed and toilets always cleaned, always dusted and windexed, etc. I was a VERY busy mom with ALOT of demands I placed on myself. Along with having an immaculate house I also kept our finances (at that time) perfected and we once qualified for a Half Million Dollar Home when we were looking for home in the Mountains of Colorado (where we did end up moving for one year). Which by the way had been a teenage dream for husband and I...to live in the mountains in Co, and we made it COME TRUE. In addition, the "creative side" (as an adult) came out with letters to editior citing examples of morals that were being taught and learned by my children in everyday situations. I was often "in the paper". I also was VERY involved in politics and called in on radion talk shows with my "highly opinionated self". lol Now... 4 1/2 yrs ago I did finally lose it completely. I had a psychotic breakdown and all that goes along with that. I was hallucinating visually, auditorially even smelling a "burning smell". My breakdown was all religiously based and quite scary as I "thought" the Devil and G-d were competing for my soul. I was hospitalized just in time as I could very well have hurt myself or someone else...since my mother as well as my husbands faces turned into the Devil (in my mind). I also was confronted by police after husband was trying to take me to the hospital himself and the police were called. I had jumped out of our truck because husband had a shovel sticking out of the back of it and in my mind he was taking me to the edge of town to "bury" me. When the police caught me I tried to grab the gun from one of the officers in order to shoot myself as I thought they all wanted me dead anyway. After my hospitilization I was on various mood stabilizing drugs that were not working...finally placed Abilify. Abilify has been life altering for me. No more deep depression...even in the middle of depressing events (like my young difficult child being in jail right now, etc). No more intense anxiety or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) type behavior either (mania). Now I do miss some of the creativity and have a "beautiful home" at all times, finances in order at all times etc. But I honestly feel that I am in a much better place today on the right medication as I function on a normal emotional level now. It is an interesting a complex life in my opinion but it does not have to be completely negative...creativity, passions, talents, perfectionism, and profound thought processes are a few BiPolar (BP) "traits" in my opinion. LMS [/QUOTE]
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