Thank you all. This is hard. Just knowing he is refusing to do what needs to be done to get his life back on track (that’s how he got to jail) and knowing there nothing I can do to make him understand.
When he was first arrested I hated the thought of him being there so much I was going to bail him out. But then the universe sent me a reminder of why I shouldn’t in the form of a neighbor who lost her son to an overdose. If I bail him out, he might go back to using and overdose and I can’t have that on my conscience. I know he hates it there and I hope he learns from this experience. I hope he decides he wants to change because I can’t force him. We’ve staged an intervention and he went to rehab but then he just got up and left. That was almost a year ago.
I will go to my first Nar Anon meeting tomorrow. I am usually too ashamed and embarrassed of this situation to talk to anyone about it. I’ll see how it goes. Thank you all again.
