I am impressed with your resilience, your strength and your courage. I am also sorry that your childhood was plagued with so much disappointment, fear and so many struggles. You have done an incredible job of overcoming the issues that you were born with. I completely understand your resentments towards your parents, given what you've been through and the toll it's taken it's pretty easy to see how you would feel that way. Just as an aside, I too had parents who could not give me what I needed due to their own issues and problems. I harbored resentments as well. In my humble opinion, it would serve you to get support, my choice is therapy, to find a way to let the resentments go and learn to forgive them. Resentments left unchecked fester and will end up hurting you more. That would be a shame considering how far you've come and how well you've done. You are young, you are now on your path in spite of them. For me, over time, I realized that even though my parents made my life so much more difficult, it put me on a path of a seeker, someone looking for the truth, someone willing to change and heal, someone with compassion for others. In other words, along with the grief of what I lost, I also received the resilience like you and the strength to overcome a lot, gifts came along with the problems, I just had to look harder for them. You've done an amazing job, a really stellar accomplishment against the odds. Learn to forgive them and you will find rewards you never thought possible. I send you warm hugs and prayers that you find peace and forgiveness........
