Update: He left rehab - did not want the six month commitment for what he felt was an infraction (in terms of a relapse). He came to my house to pick up his car. I told him he had to be sober and it had to be during normal business hours, with notice. He did all of that, and seemed sober. I had packed up his car with his stuff.
I told him his boss said he would take him back and if he committed to working, going to meetings, and staying sober, he could stay with me for a couple of weeks. He did not want to put me out, but he did stay last night and went to work this morning to talk to the boss.
I felt strongly guided by my intuition to take him in - I thought I was going to let him be homeless, but he really was sober and I didn't have the heart. He told me some upsetting stuff about his state of mind. I love him and I had also gotten "The Star" Tarot card for the day, which said that someone needed nurturing and care.
I was planning a spontaneous trip to Hawaii, but put it off.
I feel "my job" is to do this for now - it feels spiritually important to me - I know many people label all loving actions "co-dependent," but I am obviously not in that camp. I trust my own guidance and intuition and am also aware when I am not honoring boundaries (like this morning when I had an urge to do some detective work).
I know that I have no answers, or control over his choices (we have already had arguments about really basic things), but I am trusting the process and feel like I will be able to live with myself without remorse by being kind.
I read a metaphysical something (won't go into detail because I don't want to offend) - the bottom line was that "helping people" is apparently the reason we are here (from this point-of-view). Our lives are not just to be materialistic and self-serving . . . many people are suffering, and if we can help, we should (my belief).
