I am trying to elevate all of this, for my sake, to a higher, more spiritual perspective. I am doing what I know in my heart is "right" right now . . . I also know that I cannot fix him or control him (believe me, I have tried). We disagree about the color of the sky.
There is a little nuance about doing something "for them" or "for yourself." There is a belief that when you do something "for them" that is really "for yourself," that that is bad. I don't believe that. I believe it is all about consciousness and intention. If I intend an action to be "helpful" and it helps me somehow, I don't see that as twisted and "bad." I know this is an area where most would disagree. It's even kind of hard to explain . . . this is not "black or white" stuff, and we are not living our lives in fear of judgment from others, or by others dictates or understandings . . .
My philosophy is "live and let live." There is not ONE WAY . . . sometimes tough love is the right action - other times, nurturing and care is . . . I decide what is right for me - if I am in error, it will soon come to light, and I will learn from it.
I am learning a lot right now and I feel good about the love that is being transmitted in this situation. Next week I might say something completely different. It's evolution - the only constant is change stuff.
