He does know how much you love him now.
He has compared stories with others in Residential Treatment Center (RTC).
He has looked back at all the times you were there for him and for maybe the first time in his life he has talked with others that don't have a mom that cares.
All the things he took for granted that were available for him he now sees that he was loved or he wouldn't have had any of it.
I know this from my own difficult child.
I have been where you are now, scared not to go to visit, scared not to be at home at the right time for a phone call. Scared because I wanted so badly for my son to know I loved him and I was sorry for what he was going through. Wondering if I had made the right decisions regarding him, wondering if the people helping him really understood him and were being of help.
My son used the system to manipulate me and the staff.
He knew exactly what to do and what to say to get the reaction he wanted.
Be wise and be careful, I was not.
He knows how much you care, that is his weapon in manipulating you
