Welcome to our little corner of the internet. I'm glad that you shared and really glad that you have been drawing strength from reading here for over a year.
What a tumultuous journey you have been on.
There are just no easy answers for any of us here. We all do the very best we can. We hope, we pray, we cry, we scream, and we are still left wondering what else can we do.
You have done so much for your son and yet nothing is helping or changing. This is the cross roads we all face at some point. We come to realize that our helping isn't helping.
Perhaps you can work with a social worker, they may be able to direct you to some type of group home that your son could live in.
I wish I had a magic answer for you. None of this is easy.
((HUGS)) to you.......................