Abbey, first of all, I apologise, I didn't mean to make you cry.
I think what you are doing is absolutely the right thing for you. It is your way of protecting yourself and giving yourself a chance to get on with living your life, together with your husband and your children. Each and every one of us here has to somehow find the way to live their lives. It is so hard, so hard. I don't think that anyone who hasn't got a difficult child can come anywhere near to understanding how hard it is to keep our sanity, to live a normal life.
It's interesting how all our difficult children somehow have to learn the hard way, to take the most difficult path, to make their own lives so tough.
I wish I could detach. I can't. My circumstances just won't let me at the moment. So, he's living at home, and I keep out of his way as much as I can. My teeth are constantly on edge, and I pray my nerves will last out until he finally leaves home. I am at the opposite end of the path where you are, and sometimes I wish him at the other side of the world.
I'm thinking about you, and wishing you well. You have been constantly in my thoughts the last few days.
Love, Esther
