OMG Echo. Yes. I couldn't agree more. I was just thinking the same exact thing today. The feelings of grief and loss I have right now with difficult child is so similar to the feelings I had (and still have) after my mother died. It truly is bottomless sorrow....
Echo - your story and journey is so similar to mine. It's crushing. I keep asking myself why. And even though my difficult child has hurt everyone in his path I can't help but love him with all of my heart. I'm so devastated because I know I can't see him or help him because if I do he will keep coming back for more and more. It hurts me so much to know that in a couple of nights my difficult child will be back to square 1. Actually it's worse than square 1. It's truly the bottom at this point. And yes, this is his choice and his doing but it doesn't make it hurt any less.
I have the same ache Echo. It's a deep burning ache. It physically hurts and nothing I do right now makes it go away. I know you're right when you say time will pass, and it will get better but in the meantime it's an awful pain to live with.
Anyway, I'm sorry I'm rambling. I can't think straight at this point. I just wanted to let you know I'm right here with you going through something very similar and I'm praying for the both of us to find some peace very soon.
