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<blockquote data-quote="exhausted" data-source="post: 493064" data-attributes="member: 11001"><p>The human soul hates limbo. Yet after so much life stress there has to be some limbo-some deap thinking. If you had jumped on the horse and gone bronc. riding right away, people would have been worried as well. Remember how worried you were because your mother did not seem to grieve-or at least in a visable way?</p><p>I don't know everything, but my guess is you need time before you make the leap into a whole nother space. I can't imagine what I would do if "my all too predictable" world got turned upside down. Part of my identity is my job, my kids and husband (or many times HH-hellish husband), even my mom (who also makes me nuts). Even difficult child is predictable-she will be giving me anxiety. It was bad enough when she first erupted and we had to deal with that. If I had to go through deaths, difficult child, job and house loss-I don't know.....</p><p></p><p>I a no expert, but my mother/nurturing side is telling me that your body and mind need to rest a spell.</p><p></p><p>Your writing is always compelling. I still remember the story of the man and his dog. I was so touched and that day I needed to be touched by such love. I was feeling like strangling someone-I was so bitter. That kind of writing is the kind that helps mice unstick their feet from the fly paper!</p><p>No greatness comes from "normal". The things you have been through have "seasoned" you to do something very wonderful. <strong> You often phrase things and say things that noone else sees or thinks of. </strong>Hardly a writer writes 8 hours every day. I'd say set a small goal of 1/2 an hour-but my guess is that your drummer does not want to beat to a schedule right now.</p><p></p><p>I have had inertia at times. I have a professional inertia going. I only have energy for my classes at school. I use to be teacher leader, mentor, grant writer, prize winner teacher-now I just want to take care of me, my family and my classes in that order. They nominated me again for the Presidential Award in Science teaching-I was runner up in the state a few years ago. I could care less-I do not have the energy to do all the work and video taping. I felt guilty last year. I do not now. It is what I need. If it is laziness-it will be one of the few times in my life-so be it! My guess is that is also true for you.</p><p></p><p>Would giving yourself some <strong>slack</strong> and just going with the flow (even your mother's flow) help? Do you have to do something, or could it just be spiritual? Perhaps you have pushed yourself toward your mom because there is something there-a story? Healing? Fear that could turn into something good? A chance to stand in your truth and not be controlled by her? I don't know-just some thoughts. A big((( hug))) to you and the help you have offered to me and difficult child even with the proverbial feet all sticky!</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="exhausted, post: 493064, member: 11001"] The human soul hates limbo. Yet after so much life stress there has to be some limbo-some deap thinking. If you had jumped on the horse and gone bronc. riding right away, people would have been worried as well. Remember how worried you were because your mother did not seem to grieve-or at least in a visable way? I don't know everything, but my guess is you need time before you make the leap into a whole nother space. I can't imagine what I would do if "my all too predictable" world got turned upside down. Part of my identity is my job, my kids and husband (or many times HH-hellish husband), even my mom (who also makes me nuts). Even difficult child is predictable-she will be giving me anxiety. It was bad enough when she first erupted and we had to deal with that. If I had to go through deaths, difficult child, job and house loss-I don't know..... I a no expert, but my mother/nurturing side is telling me that your body and mind need to rest a spell. Your writing is always compelling. I still remember the story of the man and his dog. I was so touched and that day I needed to be touched by such love. I was feeling like strangling someone-I was so bitter. That kind of writing is the kind that helps mice unstick their feet from the fly paper! No greatness comes from "normal". The things you have been through have "seasoned" you to do something very wonderful. [B] You often phrase things and say things that noone else sees or thinks of. [/B]Hardly a writer writes 8 hours every day. I'd say set a small goal of 1/2 an hour-but my guess is that your drummer does not want to beat to a schedule right now. I have had inertia at times. I have a professional inertia going. I only have energy for my classes at school. I use to be teacher leader, mentor, grant writer, prize winner teacher-now I just want to take care of me, my family and my classes in that order. They nominated me again for the Presidential Award in Science teaching-I was runner up in the state a few years ago. I could care less-I do not have the energy to do all the work and video taping. I felt guilty last year. I do not now. It is what I need. If it is laziness-it will be one of the few times in my life-so be it! My guess is that is also true for you. Would giving yourself some [B]slack[/B] and just going with the flow (even your mother's flow) help? Do you have to do something, or could it just be spiritual? Perhaps you have pushed yourself toward your mom because there is something there-a story? Healing? Fear that could turn into something good? A chance to stand in your truth and not be controlled by her? I don't know-just some thoughts. A big((( hug))) to you and the help you have offered to me and difficult child even with the proverbial feet all sticky! [/QUOTE]
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