I saved before I was finished.......anyway I am really really upset, confused, at a total loss. I don't know if he is really in that darkness, just needs to talk or what. I would feel horrible not able to live with myself if he was suicidal and I did not talk to him and if he died oh wow can't go there and if he just needed to talk like sometimes I would feel a little bad.
I am not feeling "nothing", I am kinda sad, confused, exhausted.......has the callous growing over my heart grown so hard that I no longer care.....am I in self protection mode.......am I a horrible person for not responding.....am I indifferent.....am I callous.....? I just don't know. Should I respond, if so what do I say, do I just find out if he needs to talk and of so ok, if not if it is defending hi self regarding the 2 recent family thefts just cut it off and risk a bunch of b s.....well if I keep it on private ,essay via facebook I would just stop responding via phone just hang up......I just don't know.....Do I no longer have feelings, have I grown cold...
I appreciate all of you listening..reading...responding with thought, comments.....Thank yoy for caring. Sorry I was all over the place and this is really long, I hope it makes sense.
Hugs to All of you
Hopeful