[USER=18958]@Copabanana[/USER]
Hey Copa,
I’ve read many of your responses on here and your insight is honestly so inspiring and so grateful to you and the other members who come here to offer support. I saw you recommended a book called co-dependency no more and I immediately purchased as I recognise I absolutely do everything you posted as on page 72!
Everything you say is accurate, i don’t wish to sacrifice my youngest, he used to be terrified when his brother was kicking off, crying, hiding under the table, now he doesn’t react, like he desensitised to the drama and chaos which is so sad. I also don’t want him to see his mother being abused and disrespected with no consequences and mimic that behaviour down the line.
I find it crazy how much I’ve tolerated from my son, i wouldn’t allow myself to be treated like that by a partner but felt bound by parental responsibility, guilt, codependency, you name it, to permit that kind of treatment under my roof.
I have been worried about the police raiding my home, losing my home, social services have already been involved due to the risk to my youngest from his brothers behaviour. Writing this down actually makes me realise how foolish I’ve been to not have done this sooner. I too work in a profession where I have to disclose any convictions or penalties that could risk my career. Over the years, we’ve lurched from one drama to the next and each time I find it harder to recover from them and I’m like a ball of anxiety waiting for the next one.
