I’ve said almost in jest that I think I have PTSD but I’m thinking it’s true. I was prescribed antidepressants but they didn’t make a difference. It was like I can function well, hyper function in fact, I work hard, the house is spotless, I cook nice meals, I have great friendships and take pride in my life but I’m never relaxed, I fixate on things, always feel overwhelmed, whenever I’m out, I’m hankering to get home but feel unsettled when I’m here. I try to control everything I can, I write lists for everything, can’t settle until the house is perfect. My hair has even started to fall out but it doesn’t feel like depression.
