I’m sorry for what you’ve been through and what you’re going through.
You user name reminds me of a song that by Merle Haggard that makes me think of my son ‘Mama Tried’ and will likely resonate with a lot of us here
And I turned twenty-one in prison doin' life without parole
No one could steer me right but Mama tried, Mama tried
Mama tried to raise me better, but her pleading, I denied
That leaves only me to blame 'cause Mama tried