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<blockquote data-quote="Ironbutterfly" data-source="post: 689686" data-attributes="member: 19951"><p>COM, I love your honesty about your thoughts. I too, had thought,"Oh would it be better if he died" This was at my lowest point in my walk with son. When I was exhausted from all the worry, loss of sleep, feeling like a zombie, lost weight, developed diabetes Type2, had a hysterectomy, developed stomach and colon issues from all the stress over the years. My son was sucking the life and joy out of my life. I had to change, restructure my thinking, my reaction to his decisions, his mistakes, his drama. I had to choose him or me. I chose me. I will be a part of his life- but on my terms. If at any time it starts to go down that rabbit hole, I have a safety button I push in my mind that says, stop. </p><p></p><p>Took many years. I so love all that you wrote. But especially this "I was still very hooked in to what he did and said and would agonize over every action or inaction. A mother's nightmare". This became an addiction to me. I had actually gone through withdrawal when the calls stopped, when he moved down south far away from me and his druggie girlfriend, when his life seemed to be settling down, changing slowly, like a ocean wave unlike the weekly tsunami.</p><p></p><p>Thanks again for an amazing post. You should write a book!!!</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Ironbutterfly, post: 689686, member: 19951"] COM, I love your honesty about your thoughts. I too, had thought,"Oh would it be better if he died" This was at my lowest point in my walk with son. When I was exhausted from all the worry, loss of sleep, feeling like a zombie, lost weight, developed diabetes Type2, had a hysterectomy, developed stomach and colon issues from all the stress over the years. My son was sucking the life and joy out of my life. I had to change, restructure my thinking, my reaction to his decisions, his mistakes, his drama. I had to choose him or me. I chose me. I will be a part of his life- but on my terms. If at any time it starts to go down that rabbit hole, I have a safety button I push in my mind that says, stop. Took many years. I so love all that you wrote. But especially this "I was still very hooked in to what he did and said and would agonize over every action or inaction. A mother's nightmare". This became an addiction to me. I had actually gone through withdrawal when the calls stopped, when he moved down south far away from me and his druggie girlfriend, when his life seemed to be settling down, changing slowly, like a ocean wave unlike the weekly tsunami. Thanks again for an amazing post. You should write a book!!! [/QUOTE]
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