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<blockquote data-quote="myfirstandlast" data-source="post: 75858" data-attributes="member: 3420"><p>Forgot to add, I was a WRECK on Wednesday. Pretty strong depression. I talked to a friend of my ex who pretty much said that from his brief conversation with my former mother in law that yes, he does believe that she blames me for her son's death.</p><p></p><p>I mean, I know I could not have prevented this. I know that. But I am still human and still so sad that he didn't reach out to anyone. If only we had been on better terms, if only I'd shared my concerns about his mental state with someone a month ago, etc.</p><p></p><p>I had to get up early to get kids on buses and then slept from 9 am to almost 1 pm. I NEVER do that. But I've been pretty sleep-depped.</p><p></p><p>I almost felt like I was in a stupor on Wednesday. I was driving around town, waiting to pick the kids up from Grandma's house at 8 pm, and just felt rather ... disconnected. Like I was drunk or something, things weren't really clear, and I felt like I had impaired reaction time. I'm not on ANY medications, and I'd had something to eat (been barely eating, too) so nothing like that.</p><p></p><p>It has been one week.</p><p></p><p>When will it seem real?</p><p></p><p>It feels like the viewing/service was years ago ... but also like I need to remember to call him about ... oh, yeah. Da**.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="myfirstandlast, post: 75858, member: 3420"] Forgot to add, I was a WRECK on Wednesday. Pretty strong depression. I talked to a friend of my ex who pretty much said that from his brief conversation with my former mother in law that yes, he does believe that she blames me for her son's death. I mean, I know I could not have prevented this. I know that. But I am still human and still so sad that he didn't reach out to anyone. If only we had been on better terms, if only I'd shared my concerns about his mental state with someone a month ago, etc. I had to get up early to get kids on buses and then slept from 9 am to almost 1 pm. I NEVER do that. But I've been pretty sleep-depped. I almost felt like I was in a stupor on Wednesday. I was driving around town, waiting to pick the kids up from Grandma's house at 8 pm, and just felt rather ... disconnected. Like I was drunk or something, things weren't really clear, and I felt like I had impaired reaction time. I'm not on ANY medications, and I'd had something to eat (been barely eating, too) so nothing like that. It has been one week. When will it seem real? It feels like the viewing/service was years ago ... but also like I need to remember to call him about ... oh, yeah. Da**. [/QUOTE]
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