Recovering, thank you so much.
You are exactly right about the underlying dynamic, I think. As there is more of me here, that part wants expression, wants to feel too...and sees oh, so clearly. Where before there was doubt or, worse, certainty that I had been insufficient, that I had to seek solutions, to find the place where I went wrong and fix it, now there is...I don't know how to describe it. A separateness, a bright watcher; requiring that I demand to see until I do see, this newness entices me to go further than where I believed the boundaries to the land of myself were.
:O)
This brightness seems to stay with me, faltering sometimes, but always coming back. I imagine it to be the sure and certain sense of self.
Such a thing would make those who feel it very strong, I would think.
I am happy to feel this, now. This new beginning.
I am going to try to post something for you, and for all of us here.
Before I do that, I found this quote about love, this morning:
"Love can be enacted but never earned. Respect and affection might be earned; love, like forgiveness, can be sought, but ultimately it is offered as an overflow of the heart."
Rabbi Wolpe
Cedar
