I understand what you are saying. You are bearing the sadness of yet another disappointment from your son...a big disappointment at that. And now you are dealing with additional, significant grief over your husband's prognosis, which is a lot to deal with. It's easy to believe the author of our faith when he said: "In the world you will have tribulation." But harder to believe his followup to that statement: "But be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." Still, we have to cling to that promise even if we don't understand it. Every day sadness and despair threatens to steal my joy because of what has happened with my daughter, but somehow through gratitude for what is still good in my life (even the small things) and by clinging to divine promises like the one mentioned above, I am mostly able to maintain joy even in the midst of this searing pain. None of it is easy though.
