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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 401499" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>Are you asking me what caused me to seek treatment or just therapy? The answers are different.</p><p></p><p>I actually sought treatment for myself a couple of times. Once when the boys were maybe late elementary school I went to county mental health and attempted to get help because it was so hard dealing with them but all they did was stick me on prozac and then when I asked about some therapy...well that was a disaster. I was very hesitant to even tell the woman a quarter of what I was feeling and she flat told me I was too severe for anything they could offer me. LOL. I left and never looked back. I took the prozac for about two weeks but it left me feeling so badly I quit. </p><p></p><p>In February of 99, I had a really horrible thing happen to me at work. Basically I was sexually harassed. My supervisor and the program manager called me into my supervisor's office which was a very small office, closed the door and told me that there had been complaints that my pants were too tight, torn and that I wasnt wearing undergarments. I was made to prove that I didnt have any holes in my pants by letting them inspect my pants all over including my crotch and showing my bra and panties. I was also told I was too overweight to wear the knit pants that I wore even though over half the employee's at the agency wore similar attire.</p><p></p><p>I was completely humiliated and in tears by the time I left that office. Oh...my supervisor was male and the program manager was female. It brought back all the rape feelings plus within two days the news of this spread all over the 300+ employee agency. </p><p></p><p>I went to a private therapist in another county and the first thing out of his mouth was that he wouldnt see me if this was for litigation purposes. At that moment it hadnt even occurred to me but later I did think about it but I couldnt find any lawyer to take on the county. Anyway, the therapist told me to go to my family dr and get a script for an AD. My family doctor put me on Serzone which was a complete disaster for me. OMG. It sent me into one of the worst manic episodes I can even imagine. Serzone is known for not only being not sexually neutral but it is sexually stimulating. I was eying the filing cabinets...lol. I didnt sleep for days and was on the computer for hours on end in sex chats. It was awful. </p><p></p><p>This was also when my fibro was getting extremely bad. I had been in a car accident in 97 and hadnt gotten any better since then. Around June of 99 I crashed. I had been going non-stop with the mania since about April, the pain was awful, I had almost ruined my home life...and one day I just looked at Tony and told him either he either took me to a shrink or I was driving into a semi. We went that day. </p><p></p><p>I started off on neurontin of all things. Then I switched to topamax. Topamax and wellbutrin held me for about two years until I started getting cortisone shots in my knees and we had to add lamictal to my mix and we took me off the wellbutrin at that time. When Jamie left for boot, my doctor put me on ativan. He firmly believed parents of kids in the military deserved ativan...lol. </p><p></p><p>I ended up in therapy because in 05 I lost medicaid because Cory aged turned 21. I was getting medicaid because I was the parent of a child under 21 who got medicaid. Because I had no income, I qualified. When I lost medicaid, I had to go on indigent care through county mental health and they pushed me into getting therapy. I went kicking and screaming because I had such a bad experience before. This time wasnt so bad. </p><p></p><p>Thats my story.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 401499, member: 1514"] Are you asking me what caused me to seek treatment or just therapy? The answers are different. I actually sought treatment for myself a couple of times. Once when the boys were maybe late elementary school I went to county mental health and attempted to get help because it was so hard dealing with them but all they did was stick me on prozac and then when I asked about some therapy...well that was a disaster. I was very hesitant to even tell the woman a quarter of what I was feeling and she flat told me I was too severe for anything they could offer me. LOL. I left and never looked back. I took the prozac for about two weeks but it left me feeling so badly I quit. In February of 99, I had a really horrible thing happen to me at work. Basically I was sexually harassed. My supervisor and the program manager called me into my supervisor's office which was a very small office, closed the door and told me that there had been complaints that my pants were too tight, torn and that I wasnt wearing undergarments. I was made to prove that I didnt have any holes in my pants by letting them inspect my pants all over including my crotch and showing my bra and panties. I was also told I was too overweight to wear the knit pants that I wore even though over half the employee's at the agency wore similar attire. I was completely humiliated and in tears by the time I left that office. Oh...my supervisor was male and the program manager was female. It brought back all the rape feelings plus within two days the news of this spread all over the 300+ employee agency. I went to a private therapist in another county and the first thing out of his mouth was that he wouldnt see me if this was for litigation purposes. At that moment it hadnt even occurred to me but later I did think about it but I couldnt find any lawyer to take on the county. Anyway, the therapist told me to go to my family dr and get a script for an AD. My family doctor put me on Serzone which was a complete disaster for me. OMG. It sent me into one of the worst manic episodes I can even imagine. Serzone is known for not only being not sexually neutral but it is sexually stimulating. I was eying the filing cabinets...lol. I didnt sleep for days and was on the computer for hours on end in sex chats. It was awful. This was also when my fibro was getting extremely bad. I had been in a car accident in 97 and hadnt gotten any better since then. Around June of 99 I crashed. I had been going non-stop with the mania since about April, the pain was awful, I had almost ruined my home life...and one day I just looked at Tony and told him either he either took me to a shrink or I was driving into a semi. We went that day. I started off on neurontin of all things. Then I switched to topamax. Topamax and wellbutrin held me for about two years until I started getting cortisone shots in my knees and we had to add lamictal to my mix and we took me off the wellbutrin at that time. When Jamie left for boot, my doctor put me on ativan. He firmly believed parents of kids in the military deserved ativan...lol. I ended up in therapy because in 05 I lost medicaid because Cory aged turned 21. I was getting medicaid because I was the parent of a child under 21 who got medicaid. Because I had no income, I qualified. When I lost medicaid, I had to go on indigent care through county mental health and they pushed me into getting therapy. I went kicking and screaming because I had such a bad experience before. This time wasnt so bad. Thats my story. [/QUOTE]
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