There is nothing wrong with you.
It's been a few years since I have had an actual conversation with my son. He has tried to call me but if I don't recognize the phone number I let it go to voice mail. Once I hear his message, I do not call him back. I do talk to him somewhat on FB. I have my account set up so that he cannot see anything I post. I do not trust him as he will take things out of context and use them against me. If I do converse with him it's via private message and it's not very often.
He has talked to my husband, usually after he calls me and doesn't get an answer he calls my husband. It's funny how he will tell my husband how sorry he is for the way he has treated me, yet he has never left me a message on the phone or on FB telling me that. I think he only says it to try and regain trust.
I can see what he posts on FB and in one post he can come across like he's this happy go lucky kind of person, then the next post is how he bought some bad pot and wishes the guy dead. This tells me that he has not changed at all. He is still trying to convince people that he is not who he really is and I don't want to be any part of it.
There may come a day when I will be willing to talk to him but for now I'm going to continue protecting myself.
That's really what it is Okie Girl, we are protecting ourselves and there is nothing wrong with that. In fact, it's a smart thing to do.
((HUGS)) to you......................
