totoro,
You're between a rock & a hard place. Speaking for myself I'd keep the appointments & bring up your concerns with psychiatrist.
difficult child is being prescribed some intense medications that a pediatrician usually isn't comfortable prescribing or monitoring.
I know that you're searching for a more difficult child "friendly" area so you can find help - in the meantime, you shouldn't go with-o some level of support.
I'd be concerned for you.
