I am wondering too, BG, and all, because we are so closely connected to our D cs, if we are feeling for them, I mean really feeling for them, with our concepts of how life should be, home fires burning, a place to call our own.
Even when my two do not contact me, I am still thinking about them, some days, more or less than others.
They have chosen for the time being, a life of drifting in between it all, just surviving, and we cannot imagine that for ourselves, much more so for our children.
For me, it seems that the roller coaster of enabling and having my two with me, is paralleled by a roller coaster of similar, but in lesser degree, of emotions, when they are not with me.
It is such a process, living with the reality of the choices our d cs make.
I am finding, that when I am approaching a form of peace, or acceptance, that is when my d cs will re-enter the picture. Looking back, there is this impeccable timing of their phone calls, or sudden appearance.
It is as if to say, "Oh, so you think you are at peace? Well, try this one on for size....."
I definitely have my work cut out for me, in all of this.
I really love Recovering Enablers handle, it is perfect. It seems to me it is going to be a continuous journey of recovering. I am comforted, in seeing in myself, and others, each challenge and test, if you will forgive my saying, because it does pose somewhat of a test for me, that hopefully, I will pass a little bit stronger and wiser for going through it.
I am thankful everyday, for this site, it gives insight, it gives sight.
In reading and learning of others on this journey, the different stages and perspectives, all the therapy in the world cannot compare.
I am grateful for all of my fellow warriors and the courageous honesty in sharing.
It has helped me tremendously.
Thank you BG, for your share, I think we are getting this, it is process of getting it.
I believe it is one of the hardest things known to man, to go through this. We need a badge, or a symbol, or is there one that I do not know of?
Like a yellow, or pink ribbon. Maybe even a paisley one?
Something to say, "I am a warrior parent of a troubled, difficult child."
That way, at least when we have our off days, maybe other folks would understand.
It is hard, to have an off day, but still get up and drag myself to work, to put on the smile, when I do not feel like smiling.
I understand, BG, right there with you.
I hope you are having a better day today.
Peace be to us all,
(((HUGS)))
leafy
